For two years I've thought about blogging again. For two years it's seemed overwhelming and scary. I feel like I've come through a sort of fire that was unseen by many. Although God definitely was working in my life throughout this period, it was still a fire. I'm not very good at keeping my "public life" and "personal life" separate, and so I struggled with wanting to blog but feeling I'd overexpose private issues and damage the good work being done by the fire. I've also re-realized how much I allow self doubt to make me compare myself to others and so fail by not trying.
So, so far we have:
a) I want to blog
b) I'm ascared to blog
c) There was a fire
d) It was refining
e) I overexpose
f) I'm insecure.
As you can see, it's a fun time in my head.
I'm trying to identify the times I want to blog and, am seeing them directly correlating to pretty much every time I update my FB status. (oversharing habit) (but FB is even more public than this little blog, so it's easier to remember my boundaries)
I really think my kids are cute, and I think they say pretty cute things. So, that is what I'm going to try and blog about. The other stuff is too messy for now, although I do think that I ought to begin journaling so that there is some outlet for my overfilled brain.
So, consider this a warning. :) I'm going to attempt to put my FB posts into blog posts instead of inundating my larger viewer base with silly things my kids say and do. If you want to see and hear about it, check back in. If you don't, feel free to continue to check out and just pretend that I'm still on hiatus and nothing is going on.
My only regret in this new focus is how out of focus my phone pictures turn out. Do I really want to lug my camera around to sneak pictures of my cutie patooties? It's not as stealthy as my iPhone was. Hmmm, a problem I'm sure I'll find a solution to. ;)
It's nice to see you again, I hope you'll stick around. Thank you for your patience as I try and figure out my boundaries, and life in general.
Summer
(A sample of their adorableness)